While tidying up my room over the weekend I came across a few things from my time as a freshman back in 2011. It’s crazy to think it’s been so long since then, and more than a year since I became a proper adult with a real job.
Well, I don’t really feel like a “proper adult”, let’s be honest.
When I was a teenager I had all of these expectations of how I would feel or be as a young adult, and my idealized version seemed to have her life a lot more figured out that I actually have now.
The truth is, my vision has changed a lot since then. Do you know those people who are sure of what they want to be when they grow up? I was never that person. A lot of things interested me, but none were special.
When the time to pick a major came, I went for Journalism. It seemed something I would like until I realized I was not passionate about it. But I stuck with it and then did a one-year post-graduate program in Marketing. While I enjoyed it for the most part, it didn’t bring me the clarity or passion I longed for.
While still studying I landed a three-month unpaid internship and then faced unemployment while struggling to know which direction to take. It was scary; I’m sure you know that feeling whether you are a school or university graduate.
The truth is, change scares me. I’m a big planner. I like knowing what’s next.
After graduation, I had to deal with the uncertainty of the future ahead. The only thing I was sure of was how unprepared I was for the “real world”.
I finally landed another internship in digital marketing (this time paid, because we all need money to live), which is the current position I’m at. And the truth is, I’m still figuring out what I am passionate about. And it’s okay, this time of our lives is all about transition. And that transition into the real world is challenging; mostly when you’re struggling to find your purpose in this life.
I’m still trying to discover mine as a multi-passionate person. A hummingbird, as Elizabeth Gilbert puts it, flying from tree to tree, pursuing my curiosity.
It’s okay not to know what your purpose is or not having your life all figured out. I’m pretty sure most people feel as lost as you.
Enjoy the present moment, get to know yourself and be curious to try everything that excites you. In the end, we are all trying to find our way, and in the process, you might even bump into your purpose.
I wish I had an inspiring story on how I was brave enough to quit my job and build my dream. While I’m not there yet, I’m definitely on my way.
I dream about the freedom of doing something I’m passionate about, something that lights my soul on fire. It will be a bumpy ride but I believe that is possible.
As a J.K. Rowling said, “Anything’s possible if you’ve got enough nerve.”