Have you ever felt like you’re floating? Not in a weightless, joyful way but a kind of stagnant funk that’s slowly crept upon you? There’s a good chance nothing particularly bad has happened, but yet you’re left with a resonating sting of complacency and the “I’ll get to that later” mentality.
In the back of your mind you know you don’t want it to stay this way. You have flashbacks of when the passion and zeal for discovery, growth and experience was an everyday occurrence.
Now, it feels like a distant memory.
I can’t count the times that seasons of complacency have entered my life. The warning signs of this funk all begin with a lack of introspection. My journaling dwindles and the time I would normally spend in prayer is spent scrolling through my phone. Unopened text messages begin accumulating, voicemails are left unreturned, and the to-do list I was so adamant about completing is now collecting dust on my desk.
By nature, we are complacent beings. Unsatisfied, restless, we constantly experience an unquenchable thirst for more. Earn more, do more, accomplish more. I feel the need to whirl around in a state of productivity, living off an adrenaline rush and caffeine.
If you are like me, you might let this go on for a very long time until you feel so wrapped up in guilt that you don’t know what to do with yourself – so you do nothing. Let the cycle continue. If you’ve felt yourself become complacent in your spiritual life, your relationships, the daily tasks that the world offers; it’s likely that a stubborn piece of you is refusing to address what’s going on in your heart.
Simply knowing how you feel and what you feel towards something is truly a gift. There will be those moments where you feel overwhelmingly inadequate in your own skin – pause.
With or without your performance, you are enough. You are worthy, simply because you are human. You have the capacity to do as much or as little as you want. I find the small victories to be the most rewarding.
“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” – Maya Angelou
– image credit: Kaihla Tonai